Words (Not) to Live By…

Last night while Wade was putting Wyatt to bed, I was washing dishes from dinner while Tatum was playing in the living room.  We have a rule about no screen time after 6:45pm, so it was pretty quiet except for the running water from the sink.

So here I am, washing away, and all of a sudden I hear her sweet little toddler voice….

“$hit….. I forgot puppy!!!”

And she runs off towards her room.  I thought, surely I heard that wrong, so I followed her down the hall.

“Tatum, what did you just say???”

“I forgot Puppy?”

“Before that.”

“Oh, $hit?”

“Yes honey, that’s a bad word, we don’t say that, ok?  It’s not nice, so we don’t use it.”

“What, $HIT?!?!”

***sigh***

Parenting fail over here, and this one is totally my fault.  I will admit it’s probably the swear word I use the most.  Gonna have to work on curbing that one.  Whoops!

In other, BETTER, parenting news: This little dude is 8 months old today, and I can’t believe how fast time has flown!  He loves grabbing at things (and I mean EVERYTHING that a dude can grab at if you know what I mean, so diaper changes are… challenging), baby food (especially the textured kind), hanging out with the LADIES (total flirt), his Big Sister, and his Bun Bun.  He doesn’t have much he doesn’t like, to be honest, but I guess I’d have to say baby puffs aren’t his cup of tea, and he’s not a huge fan of waking up in the dark if he thinks he’s alone – but once he sees you he’s completely fine.

All this rain is KILLING me with Biscuit, as while she WILL go outside and pee without supervision, she still requires me to come tromping out into the yard (aka, Lake Hanchar) to watch her take a crap.  Then she gleefully runs through the water to the back door because her favorite part (remember, my dog is a super nerd) of getting wet is getting towel dried off.  LOL.  She’s a serious nut.  The good news is she’s pretty much 100% now on potty training, and it’s been super smooth sailing on that front.  Never thought I’d be wearing my muck boots in 4 inches of standing water in my backyard.  Turd floater, for sure.

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“This wet stuff falling from the sky is a little concerning, I think?”

I was also watching her run around today thinking, DANG this dog has gotten tall and lanky on me already!  Pocket Collie, she is not.  LOL

I think the cookies are trying to tell me something….

I’m hoping this means I should just keep on keeping on with The Carousel Cowgirl and things will start kicking into high gear! I’ve already had a much more successful Jan/Feb than I expected, so there’s that! I get in these funks with my crafting, and this year it seems to be worse because I’m also in a SAHM funk (more on that later), but I’m trying hard to drag myself out of it and land on top of my game again.

Poor Wade, his cookie didn’t even have a fortune in it. I wonder what that means? Can’t be good. Ha!!

SAHM Funk: Let’s get real for a minute. I know this is totally going to sound very “First World Problem” to a lot of you, but lately I’m having a tough go of the SAHM thing. Don’t get me wrong, I love being at home with Wyatt, and the extra time with Tatum when she’s not at school. I am also super grateful to Wade for making it all possible for me. But after a while, there’s only so much sitting at home staring at your adorable son who is incapable of having a conversation with you, adult or otherwise, that one can take. I feel so isolated so much of the time. It’s a funny cycle because the more isolated you feel, the more you kind of hole up in the house and dread going out.

I know, it seems stupid, but it’s real. I spend a lot of time with no adult interaction and it’s starting to get to me. I have very few friends who don’t work, and so yes, I need to make some more SAHM friends. The problem with that is that the flu is so bad right now it’s a little scary venturing out to playgroups and whatnot. Also (and those of you who know me well may be surprised at this) but I’ve started having a lot of social anxiety centered around these Moms Groups.

“I don’t know anyone that will be there.”

“What if no one talks to me?”

“What if they don’t like me?”

Dude, it’s like school days all over again. I start to freak out a little inside at the thought of having to CREATE intelligent conversations, when inside that’s all I’m craving.

Weird. I know. *sigh*

So now I’ve decided I need to “date” the friends I have, and force myself into some new social situations to make some new ones.

Sounds easy, right?

If only. 😦

9/4/17 Labor Day

I haven’t posted much lately, but all this weekend we’ve been in the throes of potty training and while the first day went relatively well, the last couple days have been meh… I swear this kid will never get potty trained, she just doesn’t seem to care when she goes on herself. It’s the total opposite of the way I thought she would be. I guess I’m just going to send her to school tomorrow with extra clothes and see what happens! Man, toddlers are tough!!!

We saw lots of friends this weekend! Cory, Emily, Landon, and Logan came over today and the kids had a blast!!! Yesterday we saw Claire and her family at their house, and Saturday morning we met some new friends at our neighborhood park!

We also put Tatum’s dollhouse together on Sunday, what a crazy cool gigantic toy that is!! She loves it!

Looking forward to some time with just Wyatt home tomorrow! 😜 I still need to get over to Lonestar, Stacie and I had a GREAT first month there especially considering it was only open half the month! I’m hoping the momentum continues!

Some pics from this weekend:

7/30/17

A puzzle piece fell into place on Tatum's no good, very bad weekend. She was running just the slightest fever this morning, and since both Wade and I figured the ear infection didn't get knocked out by the antibiotic Wade took her in to Nitehawk (pediatric urgent care). They checked her ears, checked for strep, uti, everything, but nada. Virus. So at least it's not an infection, yet… 😬

We had a fairly low key day since she was feeling kind of off. Naps, mommy treated herself to a MASSAGE (and it was ah-may-zing!), and then I grabbed my new additions to my Pyrex collection from my "dealer":

I present, PINK GOOSEBERRY!

I had the top bowl (the smallest) but she was able to complete my set for me! Really love them!!

After that we did our very first Walmart grocery pickup, and I have to say, I can't believe it took me this long to try it!! Should have listened to Sara!! No more lugging kids into Wally World for me! Woop Woop!

We braved it and went to Cotton Patch for dinner, and it went better than expected. Stopped off at the dollar store for me to get the little cups I use to stack my pyrex and Tatum picked out a flower. She was so pleased with it, and what the heck, it was $1…. right? I know, spoiled…

Tomorrow I have a whole stack of stuff to do so I'm really hoping she will feel well enough to go to school. I am so not ready to have both of them at home!!! She's been pretty much fever free since this morning so my fingers are crossed!!!

Until tomorrow!

7/29/17

While Wyatt had a MUCH better night and day today, Tatum had probably her worst in a while. She worked Wade and I to the absolute max…

She woke up fairly cranky, and it just got worse from there. We headed to the Farmers Market in McKinney for a little outing and I wrapped Wyatt for a little more practice and she was supposedly going to walk, but instead she tripped (AGAIN) on these damn sandals she has that she insists on wearing everywhere and skinned her left knee. It wasn't bad, but if you know Tatum you know it was a drama fest that ended with her insisting she couldn't walk and making Wade carry her. I wish I'd brought the onbu so I could have worn them both, but I doubt Wade would have let me do that anyway since that makes him look kinda jerky walking all unencumbered while I haul two kids around! Lol!

Of course they also had pony rides and we couldn't get out of there without doing that. At least she was happy for the couple minutes that was going on!

We headed to Lonestar to drop off more stuff for the booth and I ended up taking her in with me while Wade stayed with Wyatt in the car. I'm just realizing I placed the grey frame on the right way too high for someone of normal height so I'm going to have to get back up there this coming week and redo my frames. Poop.

If that isn't an advertisement for a super challenging toddler right there, I don't know what is! 😂😂😂

Then for some unknown reason we decided to take her to lunch at Panera. I won't go into details because it still makes me exasperated to think about it but I came so close to (excuse my french) absolutely losing my shit with her in a public place, which I have never ever done. Ugh. So home we went and all took naps to cool off.

The evening went *better*, and because we're absolute gluttons for punishment we took both kids to El Fenix for dinner. With the aid of the iPad we had a slightly less frustrating meal, but bedtime totally sucked, and now I'm just hoping for any sort of improvement tomorrow.

I know a lot if it is just her age, but dang she is so strong willed, and some of it is we've just spoiled the crap out of her and now we're having to try to backtrack and fix the attitude problem. *sigh* Lessons in parenting….

I spent some time organizing and cleaning out my beads that I'm not going to use tonight and so that settled me a little. Organizing always makes me feel a little more put together for some reason!

Here's hoping for a better day tomorrow!